Irmujahidah

This has got me reminiscing about my old days.

Back then, I was really eager to study engineering for my degree, though I never score in physics and add math. Was crying while doing math exercises during add math class. Even I was an assistant of head physics facilitator, but never once I score. Ni bukan merendah diri, tapi memang tak pernah score 😂 I got that post coz a good friend of mine knew how I love physics so much, so he asked me to cope with him as head facilitator. Tak pernah rasa layak.

When I was in form1, I wrote down my dream on my hostel's pillow cover
"Mechanical engineer, Petronas, United Kingdom."
Lol

I started writing blog since June 2009. (Now I got no time for that luls)
Zikr of Mujahidatul Handasah.
It reminds me of the struggle being an engineer and His slave, striving to become a better person.
I used to put "Irmujahidah"as my nickname. Ir stands for a certified professional engineer's entitlement. Mujahidah is an arabic word for a striver, a struggler.
So childish yet so funny.

Confident level 100%.
Kalaulah dulu confident kurang sikit, tak payah laa nak hadap kepayahan ni haha.
What even worse is I choose to study engineering in Japanese. Kelakornye masyaAllah.

Belum grad jadi engineer pun lagi haih. Engineer penatnyaaa, nak jadi suri di hati je sekarang, domestic engineer ajar physics add math kt anak je. For the time being, anak kucing. Thank you for those who read this kind of waste-your-precious-second-in-life post till the end.

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My kinda 'meroyan' post on LINE during final exam week last semester.

Paste it here.
For me to remember.

Very nervous waiting for the result. But of course, they never distract me for having a wonderful time with beloved ones here in Malaysia.

I'm entering the final semester of 3rd year by this October inshaaAllah. Really hope to have this momentum, getting better each day. Allahumma aslihli. More reading, more studying, more praying inshaAllah.

Pray for me thah I become a very excellent muslim engineer or any better profession that suits me under Allah's mercy and guidance. Amiin. 

14.06.15

Alhamdulillah finally had a chance to meet him in person. I had an amazing time meeting great scholars, great people. Subhanallah.

Just, I feel like something is missing. *cry*

Action, contribution. Bila compare dengan usia, masa yang dah dihabiskan, ilmu yang ada, nikmat yang dapat --- rasa sangattt tak balance dengan sumbangan dan tindakan.

Waktu kau tengah enjoy huhahuha wasting time, on the same time so many people around you are struggling to learn more about Islam, trying their best to be a better muslim, striving really hard to contribute something for ummah's sake.

Moga Allah panjangkan usiaku dengan usia yang berkat.
Kalau mati sekarang, masih tak pasti apa nak bawa sebagai jaminan syurga.

TGHA, who was sitting in the middle,
and I was the one with blue scarf standing at the back.
*belakang Tok Guru pun jadi laaa hehe*

06.06.15

Suka aku coretkan quote seorang sahabat agar aku sentiasa beringat,
"Bilamana kejelasan fikrah hadir dengan memuncak tanpa diimbangi keindahan tazkiyatun nafs, berhati-hatilah anak muda...bukan sedikit yg gugur. Jujurnya aku pernah melalui dilemma ini. Alhamdulilah diselamatkan sebelum aku mengganas sepertimu di alam maya. Diam itu nikmat bagi orang yang pernah banyak cakap."


Isti'jal. Gopoh.

Gopoh. Jiwa anak muda sepertiku.
Alhamdulillah Allah selamatkan aku suatu ketika dahulu melalui teguran seorang senior yang aku hormati, jangan gopoh. Hingga kini melekat dan aku ingat bait teguran beliau.



Ini cabaran generasiku. Cabaran media baru.

Teruskan lazimi al-Kahfi.
Bertegas dengan diri tinggalkan maksiat yang menzalimi diri sendiri.
Taqarrub dengan Allah.
Perkukuhkan tarbiyyah.
Jangan pernah tinggal tazkiyatun nafs.

Sejak akhir-akhir ini, acapkali abah pesan soal tarbiyyah.
Jaga tarbiyyah. Jaga disiplin tarbiyyah.
Perjuangan yang suci perlu penyucian fizikal dan rohani, kata abah.
Menarik untuk dihayati bersama bila bicara soal tarbiyyah iaitu komponen tarbiyyah itu sendiri.
Pertama, tarbiyah dalam memberi kefahaman kepada orang lain. Kedua, tarbiyyah perlu menghayati dan ketiga pula tarbiyyah perlu berjuang. Hadam dan faham, barulah tarbiyyah meresap dalam hati.

Fitnah semakin menggila. Dunia semakin di penghujungnya.
Moga Allah pelihara mereka dan diri yang hina ini di jalan ini. InsyaAllah!